One of the REALLY GENUINE Happiest DAy of my life!

"Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed"

Christian lyrics - HAPPY DAY LYRICS - TIM HUGHES 

I'm really happy...REALLY REALLY HAPPY....

It's been awhile since I've experience genuine happiness!

In God, there is fullness of JOY!

Well, making that decision ain't easy.. But after making it, I can sense the JOY just running through my whole body! I'm set free......

When I held on to that feeling and didn't want to let go, I was in pain, in agony and in so much hurt......

But now that I've let go, I'm filled with the joy of the Lord and He gives me strength!

It wasn't easy to let go...It was part of what I wanted in life..

I knew God said to me through people and circumstances that that feeling wasn't what He wanted me to have..But as stubborn as I was, I didn't bother.. I held on to it...

Well, we all know that if we don't obey God, means we're choosing the wider path that looks nicer to walk on...but at the end of that path, we will have to bare the consequences...

Bearing the consequences wasn't easy but as long as we are willing to humble ourselves and seek God's help, God will change our consequences into a lesson that we can learn from and help others next time......

He turns our mishaps into a blessing for us... Ain't that great!??! 

Thank you Jesus! I really love you! :D ♥♥♥

Independence Day - Love Story

So young but not that innocent after all..Look at the last part.....
Funny lah he!

Phillips, Craig & Dean - When God Ran - Live

Pranked!

Everything spilled out today! They were playing a prank on me!

And guess whose idea it was??? It was none other than MR. CHAN JIN SWAN!

Smart ass! Kantoi me! not that it was planned ahead but on the spot!

and I actually believe him.....too much! and everyone was just playing along only la

haiz.....qi pian wo de gan qing! TOO MUCH LA TOO MUCH!

Smart ar CHAN JIN SWAN! YOU SO SMART LA!

This is what I get???

I laughed at the situation when I found out about it.....felt so dumb at the same time....:)

I came back home after dancing practice, wondering to myself when I was taking a shower....

WHAT IF I reacted in a different way?? What if I didn't respond with a laughter??

Well, I don't know what was the result for that, cuz I din try...And I thank God I din.....
God heard my prayers this morning.....Thank you God for it!

If...and only if...

If and only if there wasn't a person that can influence our relationship to be in this state....
If and only if I could turn back time so that none of this could happen...
If and only if there weren't such a thing known as feelings.....
If and only if the world could be a better place..

What is there in life that we can determine?
What is there in life that we think if we had chosen this way it would have been much better?
What is there in life that made u make this decision?

In life, we can NEVER NEVER turn back time......
Movies and tv programs that show us things about going back into the past...It's not realistic at all..It will never happen!
What we can do is only plan ahead, think twice before making any ANY decisions, watch what you say and last but not least, never say you regret it in the end!

You must be wondering why I'm saying this...
Well, it all happened to me....and truly I really regretted making all that stupid, idiotic decisions, not watching what I say, not even being aware of what others think and how they feel....
I feel like a BAD ASS KID! LIKE SERIOUSLY!
And sometimes I even put the blame on others without even checking on myself to see if I was the one who had caused all these fraud, tension and emotional instability amongst people around me..
And believe me, I feel terribly bad! TERRIBLY BAD!
When I look back, there's a sense of regret, as well as sense of being childish as well....
I look back and feel stupid at the same time.......
Live a life with one purpose-God, Goal, Go! And THOU SHALL NOT live in regrets!
Definitely, we need the GRACE of God to be upon us as well, if not all thing will not go well........

I've realised my mistakes and I want to sincerely apologise to everyone whom I've hurt before.....
Sorry.......

emo...emo~~~

Probably just keeping quiet for this week would help my 'thinking too much' brain think too much!
Though emotionally unstable at current moment...(sorry for being super duper emo) I shall try to be happy when I'm with everyone...
Don't want you guys to be not so cheerful......
This week started off crankily...and it wasn't that pleasant as well...
BTW, WE NEED TO START DEVOTION AGAIN....last week lupa to do already.......
GUYS, we need to do devotion already...

Weekends!

It's been a while since I've blogged...
Probably not entirely awhile but just not everyday..hee :D
Yesterday, I woke up at 1.30pm...not even knowing it was that time.I woke up to go toilet...
After realising the time, I decided to wake up and started to think what to do for the whole day..
So, I bought my lunch, came up to my room and faced the laptop...Had a sucky internet connection thanks to the housemate!
But I managed to chat with Chulan and we went for a movie together called 'Diary of A Wimpy Kid'

I rate the show 3 stars only.....It was funny in the beginning but soon after that it became a bit boring...But I think the ending was good..It's the normal ending where it is expected that this kid will in the end find his true friend and live happily ever after.. :D

So, after the movie and dinner, I went back home. Wanted to chat and watch drama but the housemates were on PPS....My MSN automatically signed out.....GOSH! I was so frustrated I offed my laptop, took my book, lied on my bed and read it.

DID I TELL YOU THIS BEFORE??????
SUNDAY MORNINGS are always SO AWESOME!

And on the way to church, David and I were talking about God's grace... As I missed last week's service...I was determine to get something out of today's sermon.....
I'll blog about it soon....WAit up for it! 

Good nite!

P/S: If I haven't wrote about it, pls write on my chatbox as a reminder! Thanks!

today!

I went for my blood test and urine test today...AND!!! To my surprise, the bill is RM 386....
Wow...I've never imagine it could be that high....First time take so many test...Of cuz la..
Well, I din have much cash with me, so I paid some only and the rest when I go and collect my results...
My number was called so I went to get the tests done.... 5 pines/tubes to take my blood..2 normal ones, 3 others which I have no idea what it is..... 2 urine containers....
When the needle poke in, it was a little bit pain compared to the last time....
The 1st 2 pines/tubes were ok....slowly by the end of the 2nd pines/tubes my arm, the part where the needle when in became blue black...until now still blue black...damn scary whey.......
of cuz, it doesn't look that obvious in the photo..but it's obvious in real life....
hee:S..

Came back home, rushed MRM..thank God I manage to finish it...
Went to print...walked to college...halfway, realised that I din do reference list!
Went back home to get the websites and everything....walked to college, then to com lab..sat at the computer doing the reference list...FINALLY I was able to finish it and print all before 5pm....
Went to the office, called extension 117 to ask for Mr. Ruly...Got pranked by all the lecturers...
SUCKS TO BE ME WHEY! hahahaha...But they were so funny!miahhahahhaa.......
*Phone rang. Ms Maha answered in a manly voice (so I guessed it was Hardip who picked it up)...
Me: Hi, can I speak to Mr.Ruly?
Fake Ms Maha: You want to speak to Ms. Ruly?
Me: Nope. I want to speak to Mr. Ruly.....
Fake Ms Maha: ok sure......
Mr Ruly picks up the call.....answered in a lady's voice ( it was Ms Maha)
Fake Mr Ruly: Hello..may I help u?
Me: I want to speak to Mr Ruly....
Fake Mr Ruly: speaking...
Me: *tired of asking,when straight to the point! I want to pass up my assignment.
Fake Mr.Ruly: ok..come in.

When in to the office..Everyone laughed...hahahahahhaha...
What a joke whey!

Happy...Happiness.... Joy....Joyfulness!

I want to thank MY SISTER!
She sort of like counselled me...When I really needed it...
Well, feelings and emotions they are a part of everyone's life...
Sometimes they conquer your whole system of life...make you feel happy, emotional and sad....so on and so forth..
You must be thinking "WHAT?? Her younger sister is counselling her her?? What can the sister advise her on??"
My sis, she is like a love expert! Probably we take after our parents! 'MARRIAGE COUNSELLORS'
She told me that God puts me through this situation, He will open doors and ways for you to come out.....AND SOME OTHER personal issues that I wouldn't wanna mention here...
Yes, I know my sis well enough that she can be able to advise me on feelings-love-relationship things....We always give advice to each other...
AWESOME AIN'T IT??
To tell you the truth, my sis and I, though we are 4 years apart, she also has a mature mind like me! MIAHAHHAHAHA! and I LOVE HER SOOOOOO MUCHHHHIIEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Realising that I really need to treasure my family members ever since I came up to DJ to study!
They are really supportive in everything that we do as long as we abide in GOD!
And now that I'm suffering from the illness that I myself am not that clear.....(only know that I've been leaking protein and blood), my parents, Uncle Alvin and family have done so much for me.
My parents came up yesterday to accompany me to see the kidney specialist..They purposely came up all the way and went back on the same day as well.....I felt so touched bt at the same time very tiring for them la..REally wana thank them alot...Well, the parents heart for the children..My mum always say, when you have kids then only you'll know!hahhahaha...wait till I have kids then! :D
Uncle Alvin, despite his busy schedule and loads of work he has, he still brought me to go and do my blood and urine test and also to the hospital yesterday.... He stayed throughout my whole checkup and then brought my parents and I for lunch with Aunty Fiona...
Aunty Fiona, she will be sending me to the hospital this Friday to do my blood test....
All in all, they've all contributed to my life that I have right now..! How AWESOME that feeling is when you know someone is contributing to the life you have right now????

Which LEADS to this year's TEENz Camp THEME- One Life, One God! Live it!

I'm really grateful and thankful to every single one of them!
And to God be the GLORY!
He was the one who gave me this life to live!

That's about it! Better get back to work now...HEE:D

Happy...Happiness....Joy....Joyfulness!

Guilty strikes...PANICKING NOW!

I feel so guilty after what has happened tonite!
I'm so sorry I've caused a heart attack to both me and you and nervous breakdown at that moment of time...:(
Yup PANIC is the word!
I was fiddling with her DSLR camera, snapping photos...Trying to be a pro....(CRAP)
*going straight to main point*
In the end, camera got problem...all the buttons couldn't work!
BOTH OF US FREAKED OUT!
Until now I'm still panicking.....
Cy's ok now...according to the sms she replied me....
B.U.T I still feel so guilty...DAMN! I'm never gonna touch that camera again!

As I mentioned in the previous post, I had to perform a combination of three songs dance for a Leo Club of SMKDU...

So, it happened today....(yesterday nite!)

It was great....All high school students....I felt so lost when I walked into the hall....GOSH! tell me all about feeling old and growing up too fast!

Photos to be uploaded later......I'm gonna slp already!
IT's way past my bedtime! and IF my family finds out, I DIE! hee:S

GOOD NITE! 

ADIOS AMIGOS!

Lost the Passion!

I found out today that I've lost my passion for dancing....

Like there's no more fire burning in it anymore....

The fire died down, no more feelings for it... I'm dancing now because I've committed to the performance tomorrow...and I can't back out now...It's like I'm doing it for the sake of doing!

And this has to stop....I thought of an option, which is to finish this performance and stop dancing for awhile....

But I dun think that will work... 

You see. Last week, I was dancing for Sunday service... I had the passion.. I was dancing and enjoying it as well..the passion was there...

BUT today...TAK DE le....! DAMN SIEN LA!

Where has the passion gone too?? Or isit because I'm not dancing for God?????

Figuring and asking God...Hope I get my answer fast! :(

Another AWESOME DAY!

Another tiring day today....
I think my kidneys are making a lot of noise...."We need rest, they said!"
Lately I've been sleeping like super early!!!!
Yup...But yet, my kidneys are still making noise! PAIN LA...SUFFER WHEY! :(

Today's class was at 8am...so went for it...
Finished at 10am...as usual...Couldn't get to eat breakfast cuz I was going for a blood test and a urine test as well....
After the class, I waited in the cafeteria for Uncle Alvin....The Marcus, June, CY and Jin Swan was there...... hehehe...KAT AND KAUCY AND ADU came down after that...gave me that stare! Ku dun like la..... very mischevious!

So, Uncle Alvin called me, picked me up and we went searching high and low for the place to do the test...!
To our surprise, it was in UPTOWN!
Did the blood test and the urine test.... BLOOD TEST WAS ACTUALLY FUN! IT WASN'T PAIN AT ALL...couldn't even feel the needle going through my skin,flesh into my vein!hehehe....
Well, it was my first time doing it....so yeah! great experience! The lady offered really good service! She was finding for my vein....finally she got it...my veins were going inwards so it's harder to find..
I wonder how pain would it be if the lady didn't poke into the right vein...ISH! dun wanna think abt it!

Den had lunch with Uncle Alvin......

Went for a movie-THE LOSER (nice movie) in 1U....GSC...Had a great time with DA GANG and Peni as well.....was tempted to buy shoes from Cotton On but didn't in the end,....miahahhahaha........
   Quoting from the movie THE LOSER- Hey Pooch, can u still walk??
LOL! that was funneh!!!!!! :) miahahhahaha...........
Came back for Malaysian Studies..It lasted for 40mins......
It was a funny class...Lecturer sounded awesome!History IS FUN!
After that.... Had PARTS practice.........my kidneys lasted till now...AWESOME AIN'T IT??!
WOWZERS!
Dad called, called MUM...June and CY talked to them..They were soooooo funny......
I could imagine my parents laughing.... hahhahahaha...They're gonna be up in PJ next week...woooohhhoooooo......hee:) can't wait to meet them!
Had dinner in Ming Tien..Matthew came to fetch us........
Came back from there....
Prepared my presentation and then now BLOGGING....
AND NOW..........retiring to bed!

GOOD NITE! :D

Tuesday in College....

Today was a long day at college!
Hmmm.....
Starting from the morning...I woke up at 8am....and to my surprise I wasn't feeling tired at all...
Which is a good start for a new day! hehehhee.......
Went for classes......9am-12pm followed by 1pm-4pm.....
In between that one hr break, Kuok Sing showed us "NYEH NYEH NYEH"..Which is a mixture of french kissing and Annoying orange....It was funneh...and disgusting as well....

Then, in Media Planning class, we had an invited guest to show us a video on how to use human rights...
So, there were debates and questions being raised in class....Which I think shudn't be done like that....Ain't healthy for the class....
Come on la....everyone have their own opinion abt politics and human rights and etc......rite???

Anyway, after that class, Inez ajak me go have a drink...It's been a long time since I catch up with her...
After all that has happened...I'm surprised that she's willing to put it behind her (maybe) and carry on with life...which I think is good for her... I know bitching abt her last time was my fault and I shouldn't have done it...APOLOGISE FOR HURTING HER IN ANYWAY! MAAF YA! -.-
So, we went to Wondermilk cafe thinking that the durian chocolate cupcake was from there.... But I was wrong..It's in JAYA ONE!

Whatever la....we chatted and chatted...I'm still wondering why people come and tell me their personal stuff...
Not that I dun like listening to them....In fact, it's what I like doing best......I'm happy that people can open up and share with me their problems because I can't do that...I find it hard to though in the end I still do but very reluctantly...
Then, before going back, I bought a very very chocolate cupcake for June..
Hehehe....When CY heard, she said, "BUY FOR JUNE DIN BUY FOR ME LA NOW??"
I felt guilty cuz I told it to June only..But actually I meant for the both of them....hehhee....MAAF YA!

So, June left half for her as I told her to share it with CY...Mana tau CY said, "U know I dun like sweet stuff rite....I was joking only la..."
I know she doesn't like it..but it slipped off my mind....AIKS!
In the end, June ate it all....hahhahahahaha.........miahahahahhaha....... :D

After that, we had dance practise for this coming Friday's performance...We'll be performing for the LEO CLUB in Kelana Jaya....I'm happy that I'll be able to get exposure la....hehehe...what else...
That's how College ended today....

I'll be going for a blood test and urine test tomoro I think! hehehhee.......Dun worry...I just had some kidney issues.... *READ THE PREVIOUS POST!*

Gonna slp now...GOOD NITE!

Never like being alone! :(

I really never like being alone...
Being alone in a room, or driving or eating just sucks to the max....
I always think alot when I'm alone....and usually they are the unpleasent scenarios in life!
Which will cause me to be super duper emo...hahaha...
And then who are the victims?? u will ask....  WHO ELSE??? MY CLOSE FRENZ AND FAMILY!
They suffer gao gao! Apologise to them whey...but they know me the best!

CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

I think I need to start afresh now!
I've realised that some things that I've done may cause some people to get hurt or disappointed or maybe some other unexplainable feeling....
I didn't realise this until someone actually confronted me...
YES! It did hurt, but at least I know that there is something that I can do about it....
Verifying everything that I've heard, I may have done it unintentionally but it's still a mistake.
And sometimes it is too late too apologise but that makes no excuse to not do so....
So, I'm getting geared up to start a new beginning afresh!
I don't want to be the same as last time..
CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

Reason for being in JB this time round!

I came back to JB again....
This is the 2nd time this month!
Wondering why rite.....
Well, last week when I went to c the doctor, the doctor said I had bladder infection..
I went back to check again last Wednesday, he suspected that I have kidney inflammation..
He referred me to a Kidney Specialist and ask me to go for a check up there..
Came back to Jb for a second opinion... MY MUM FREAKED OUT!
My dad was so stress I think I dropped a bomb shell on him..
My bro was so worried he was always checking up on me..
My sis slumber only la.... (HER PHONE GOT STOLEN TODAY, JUST WHEN I CAME BACK!)
Yeap! Matthew Ong was also so worried, he made sure I get a check up ASAP!
The rest of my frenz used prayer to comfort me.....
Seems as if the whole church office knows about my problem now...
I'm touched...Thanks to my frenz and family members..and everyone else, I might have forgotten who u are...
I'm fine now..BUT I still need to go for check up when I get back to KL...to make sure that there's really nothing wrong with me.....
I pray that God will preserve me..and that His blood will cover over me and heal me as well...
Do keep me in prayers! I know that the devil is out there to harm me for doing God's work and so are those who are doing God's work!
Thanks for your concern everyone! May God Bless U and I know He will! :D

A-W-E-S-O-M-E

I thank God for what He has done in my life....
Ever since we started the prayer group amongst our frenz, I've seen lives breakthrough...
Awesome I tell u! Just AWESOME!
The feeling when u see God moving in our midst and changing each and everyone of our lives!
Ain't it just A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!!!!!!!!!???????
I thank God for this pack of frenz!
I thank God for opening more doors in my life!
I thank God for using me GAO GAO to help others!
I thank God for everything like seriously......

Now that I'm not feeling well.....I still wanna thank God!
Despite my illness, I wanna praise God and I know that everything happens for a reason and God will do a miracle in my life.....
And with this, I can share with the people around me!

Just thought about my leg incident...
I have been wondering why God let this happen to me...
Well, I think I've gotten my answer already! He wants me to treasure dancing...treasure my body...that I'll be able to continue to dance for Him until the end of my days.
He wants me to dance with passion and love....and of cuz with a testimony....:D
THANKS BE TO GOD!

Not in a good mood....:(

Not in a good mood today.....dunno why..

Mood swing la....ISH!
Imagine if this world didn't have such a thing called feelings....

I wonder how everyone will react, express their emotions and feeling...

I feel as if I'm about to cry dy la....I duno why but my heart just feel so heavy la.....

Like a big rock sitting on it....can't get up from it.....ISH!

NO MOOD TO BLOG DY LA....

CHiaoz!

I suddenly wondered why did God make everyone in different shapes and sizes???

What if God made us all the same size??? Wouldn't it be easier for everyone, for the tailors and designers to make clothes and design them???

But then I realised that, wouldn't it be contradicting to the word of God where it mentioned "He created us in His own image", "Each and everyone of us is special and no one is alike, not even the thumbprint".

God is just an awesome God! And He loves us for who we are and not what we are.....

He created us differently not because he is bias but because he wants to show us his creativity....

And so, I went to Homes yesterday! It was the last Homes that we'll be together...

because.....WE WERE MULTIPLYING!

CY and Jin Swan joined us.....had a fun time with Kar Mun!!!!!!!

but we're gonna get separated.... :( *sobs

but nvm!!!!!!!!!!!!

GLEE!

GLEE, as I though was a nice drama serial din turn out so nice in the end..
It's too draggy!!!!!!!!!LIKE really draggy!

but the musicals are inspiring....They inspire me to do something for PARTS!
haahaa...If only I had the source to do the musical.......hmm...I wonder how le....It's not easy to get the scores and get someone who can really play the piano/keyboard for us..But getting the adapter for the keyboard FIRST!
Yup! so I hope I can do something like GLEE....
Just the musical...not the drama....

SS2 Pasar Malam and Today! 12/04/10

Pasar Malams are always crowded as usual...

So, June, CY, Jin Swan and I went to SS2 Pasar Malam today....

We had alot of food.....Everything tasted well...

EXCEPT for the Super Spicy Taiwan Sausage! dah lah so sinful....

SUPER DUPER EXTRAVAGANTLY EXTREMELY SPICY WHEY!!!!

bei da han....I'm like the queen of chilli padi and I can never live without it...but this chilli powder....it's just powderful la whey....over dy over dy..

Oh! and there's this bun.....I never imagine it would be done in that way, and it tasted good alrite!

  

The Nasi Lemak! Fuiyoh..!!!!

Malaysia is TOP for their Nasi Lemak la whey! 

The sambal for the Nasi Lemak is just way too AWESOME!!!! though it's not that spicy, but it tasted so delicious, if it was spicier, it would probably have been better!

The rice was sebiji-sebiji one....not like those, dunno whether cook or not..one lump one lump one..it was perfectly fine!

Let me think what else????oh, and there's this old type of green,pink and yellow round biscuits i think...u can call them biscuits...that was like my childhood whey...Did not buy it but it reminded me of my childhood food...one that i liked eating the most...It'll melt in the mouth that one lah!

Disgusting thing coming.......
I discover blood in my urine...it has been like that for a few days already...

I used to have it but not for so long...I think I'm too heaty...

I hope it's just heaty alrite! I have no idea what's happening to me....

I also feel like vomiting at the same time...I think my body is using too much strength already......exerting too much without replenishing it!yup!maybe...

Yeah! So I pray that God will heal me oso la!

Amazing Testi!

Second day of devotion! Thanks to future Ps. Chan...Hahahhaha...

He will kill me if he sees this! =.=

Anyway, I thank God that from time to time, He provided me with praying partners and God has been gracious to us all....

Today, we prayed for the person on our right....

God did miraculous works in our midst!

Indeed when 2 or 3 are gathered together, God's presence is with us....and I believe God was with us, The Holy Spirit was speaking through me to my fren June to tell her things....

God was working...

All Glory to God!!!! AMEN! Without Him, I can't do anything!

So, I think I'll end here...I have class at 9am..and now is 2.23am....AWESOME rite???

God I really need your strength to carry on my race! 

**Pics will be uploaded soon! sorry!

Good nite!

Happy Moments to share with u!

I'm very happy today....Words just can't express how happy I am right now!
To the extend, I feel like jumping up into the sky and nevah come down like fat mamah!
hahhahahhaa.....that's the way to describe!hahaha..if u knew any of those fat mamah jokes!
I sure know some of u do!

Except for the mash potato gravy, dinner was nice!DELICIOUS!!!!!! now I'm starting to get hungry!!!!!!!!!!
Yeap! The gravy failed me...........I suck at making it...I'll have to experiment next time, at home.....hahahha....before even bringing it out to the world!hehehe

Oh and then and then, Toni very funny la...He's a guy who is so dramatic whey! I think he can compete with Alvin Tan and Joseph Chandra... And when I told him, "gosh! you're so drama......so cute whey!!!!!!"
His face turned super red, toe-may-toe red immediately......
We were laughing so hard......ROFL!

Well, thank God we started some devotion thing...and I shared the campus revo vision with Jin Swan and June...CY was listening..
Thank God for that! We started praying for our Campus..
At least now we have a vision, something to pray for..Because where there's vision, then we'll work towards that vision...We may lose it sometimes, but at least we know where we are...
Yeah...so we were praying for college......of cuz some were silent....but as time goes by, all of us will be able to proclaim the favour of God upon this land! AMEN??!
Let's pray that our fire will continue to burn and glow...and not die down, AMEN???

Brothers and Sisters,
If you're seeing this, I encourage you all to pray for the students that are studying abroad or even does studying in other states...Keep us in prayer, that we won't be led astray and that we will keep close to God...
AMEN??!
Thanks for your support....Especially the Youth Pastors and oso Church Leaders as well as our Parents! Really appreciate you guys.....
Friends that have helped us (Me) in life....
Thank you so much....... MY gratitude to u all.......

To all teenagers and young HUMANS,
AS LONG AS FAMILY IS STILL WITH YOU, learn to appreciate them alright!
They are the ones supporting us from the back, materialistic ways and probably even praying for us in the wee hours of the morning! YUP...I know some parents do...
STUDY HARD and appreciate them by action and not just speech!

That's all for tonite! I'm really happy and I'm gonna slp cuz I have a headache!

TTFN!

Cries...

I feel like crying all of a sudden!
When I saw something that makes me think deeper, my tears were at the verge of bursting out!
Telling kathlyn made it worst...I wanted it to get off my chest by telling someone, but I feel like crying now...
Feeling lonely at times when I'm out....SUCKS TO THE MAX! :(

at MCD finaleh!

I'm at MCD now with Matthew Ong, Jin Swan, CY and June discussing CY and June's PR proposal.
Thanks to 24hrs MCD, we can chill outside and not at home because CY says that she'll feel like sleeping in the house, so we came out...we actually went to Old Town White Coffee den only came to MCD!

Enjoyed!

I enjoyed myself back in JB for the past two days..
Though it's really short, I will treasure it with all my heart!

like how this family seems like, I had the same experience...
Especially on Saturday when everyone was at home...We weren't fighting at all.....
Everyone was happy with each other...and tolerance and patience took place in the family!
AWESOME time there!!!!

Back Home

It's so nice to be back home..

After 3 weeks being in DJ, I was homesick again....So, I decided to come back home!

I realise that having family around us is always the best. Spending quality time with my family is like treasure.

But sometimes we take them for granted...And that will be the majority!
Well, as time goes by, I have learnt to treasure them more and more..Though I still take them for granted, having them to pay my bills and stuff like that...And we are at times lazy to even just say a sentence 'Thank You'..
This time, when I came back, I've seen changes between the relationship in my family..
We're closer, so far no war in the house! At least I feel sense of belonging as well! !
LOVE TO BE HOME!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

TREASURE IT!!!!

The Real Reason of Good Friday and Easter Day

Good Friday known as the day Jesus was taken to cruxification by those who wanted Him dead!

Well, for the Christians, we know that God has a purpose for Jesus to die on the cross~which is to wash our sins away, to help us connect back to God, have a closer relationship with God the Father..

This was the purpose why Jesus Christ died for us! For all of you who don't know about the real reason of the death of Jesus Christ, and why we have Easter Day Celebration, this is it!

IT ISN'T ABOUT EASTER EGGS, BUNNIES AND ALL THAT STUFF SHOWN TO US ON EARTH!

DON'T FORGET THE REAL REASON WHY WE HAVE GOOD FRIDAY AND EASTER DAY CELEBRATION!

Clash of the Titans 2010

Just went to watch a movie Clash of the Titans with June, CY, Jin Swan, Marcus, Edward and Joey!

Really enjoyed the show!Hahaha......It was lots of fun, yet predictable to some of us...But of all the fun, we do know that the Greek Gods wants us Humans to worship them.....Selfish thought hor, Mr.ZEUS!!!!muaahahhahahahhahah!

Words spoke to me.Just like that~!

I was doing my devotion this morning, before I went to class..
Today's title is 'To Speak or Not To Speak' (Mark 14:53-65)
Well, recently, there were just too much drama happening in college..
First was money being stolen the other was betraying another fren...
I think if we were to gather all the dramas together, we could probably make a serial out of it!hahahahaha..
Who knows~?!!
We were talking abt it, gossiping abt it and warning other ppl abt it....
As today's msg from www.rbc.org-daily bread devotional said, 'Silence can be valuable; don’t break it unless you can improve on it.'
This hit me alot.. It was telling me to keep quiet, not talk about such drama (gossip) unless I could make things better....
Which means that I have to keep quiet, not talk about it anymore..
You would definitely ask what if I wanted to warn someone abt it, I guess you could but dun say who did it or wad...
Just leave little little hints to the people.....I made a mistake by warning other by giving them too much information resulting to the person I was refering to, tried to threaten us....that's bad! NEVER NEVER DO THAT!

Betrayed

Betrayed by a best fren is not a good or pleasent thing to experience...
Not once for the past 19 years but 2 to 3 times already!
All I can say is that experience will open our eyes, wake us up from our slumberness....
I was betrayed not directly but emotionally as I gave my sympathy to the wrong person..
After hearing to both sides of the story, I feel like a fool!
A TOTAL IDIOT!
I know some of us can be fooled once but not twice! The truth still prevails...
EVERYTHING WILL BEGIN TO UNVEIL after a while....
So there's nothing to lie about! lying is only slowing down the process of knowing the truth!
Yup! that's my conclusion!
I have a class at 8am and I'm still awakE!gosh!

GOod NITE HUMANS!!!! (1.32am)

Confirmed!

Talking to Kaucy makes me even more confirmed that I don't have feelings for KS..
I was confused because some ppl said I like him just that I don't know but actually deep down I know that this won't happen yet! If he was a christian maybe...but he's not...so yeah!
At least this is clear!
GOD, I don't wana get distracted le......HELP ME!

Thinking of her!

It's been nearly a year now and I really miss Aunty Le Lee...
I want to go somewhere where I can just shoutout my feelings.....!!!!!!!
I feel so emo now...Whenever I think of her, I feel like crying yet the tears just don't seem to wanna roll down from my eyes....
I feel as if I'm suffocating...need to let out some stuff........:S
I know that when I heard the news, I stoned for nearly the whole day, not being able to accept the truth that you are gone....
The same thing still happens, and my tears are like ice, they haven't melt and they can't role down...
Where has my feelings gone to??where has my emotions gone to??????
And that day, Monday if I'm not wrong....It was a Monday morning, I was thinking of her...
Suddenly, God told me I took her like how I took Elijah...
When Elijah had finished his work on Earth, God took him through a fire as well.
God was telling me, I took Aunty Le Lee the same way like Elijah, because she has completed her job on Earth.
It's comforting to know why God took her that way and at that time..
I really miss her alot alot alot...
Like wad my mum said, when she's doing something and suddenly remembers her, tears will roll down her cheek......
Same case here...just that my tears dun roll down my cheek because it's stubborn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA LET MY EMOTIONS OUT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:S

Over

Everything is over for now...
March Orientation 2010
Interschool Dance Competition
Earth Hour 2010
Finally there would be a time that I will be able to rest properly..
BUT BUT BUT....I fell sick...as I'm blogging now, I am sick.......
AT the same time, I'm home sick! where's my mummeh???
hehehehhee............
I'm feeling down now I duno y....maybe I shud just get some slp la....
After watching the video, Lagi emo whey!!!!!!Sad Story

That's all for now!!tata...

went to IKEA for Lunch and E@CURVE for dinner with hanging out humans~ ~  June, CY, Jin Swan and Marcus....
We had some awesome food there.......
Awesome fellowship as well........

How to know which is which?!

ISH!!!!this is such a bothering thing...
Why can't God just make everyone another partner and tell them the exact date, time, place, name and so on and so forth?
Many times we think (or maybe I think), this is the right person for me...
And then turns out, it's not! Getting hurt after that..but at the very exact same time realising that it's only a like-like and not a love-like.........
It's like playing JACKPOT! You think you're going to win this round..bet all your money....
Turns out it's just not your lucky day!
Receiving that, "TODAY'S NOT YOUR LUCKY DAY! TRY AGAIN TOMORO...", it's killing me.....
Well, for me I have my own theory already and I think it works la....Helps me differentiate like-like from love-like..
But according to my frenz....it will never work..
well, we'll c about that!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which is the real me?

Some say I'm always emo...

Some say I'm always happy and laughing away......

So, which am I????

Which is the REAL me????

I think the answer is the EMO one....always quiet,starring into blank space and thinking.....I've realised that alot....

Yes, I do try to smile and laugh as much as I can because I want people to feel happy around me, being with me...I want to be different...be there when ppl need me to hear them out....

YES YES YES! that's it....

People like the way I laugh..and long enough, I accepted that as being the real me but actually it isn't....

So, the real me.....doesn't like to talk alot actually...

Baby Baby Baby ooohhhhhh.....Justin Bieber!

[Justin Bieber]
Oh woooah, oh woooooah, oh wooooah, oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
you shout whenever and I’ll be there.
You are my love, you are my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
we’re just friends, what are you saying.
Said there’s another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like…

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Justin Beiber]
Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can’t believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool the thought of losing you
I buy you anything, I buy you any ring,
and now please say baby fix me and you shake me til’ you wake me from this bad dream.
I’m going down down down down
and I just can’t believe my first love won’t be around.
And I’m like…
[ Baby mp3 on http://musicjuzz.blogspot.com ]

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Ludacris]
Luda, When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, don’t need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing coz she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying….

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

Now I’m gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now I’m all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, I’m gone. 

Tiring Day

The Valentine's Day Event in college is finally over.....
Thank you everyone for helping out and giving support by buying stuff..hee....
Couldn't have done it without you guys!..:D


Well, I'm just looking forward to going back to JB! It's been more than a month since I went back to JB now...
I miss everyone......FAmily, Friends and Food! 3Fs....hahahahhaha......

Over over...

Exams are finally over....
Semester has ended! I pray that I will past my DTP no matter what...
I do have confidence in passing all my subjects this semester la...So not much of a problem...
But first, I would like to thank God for helping me in my revision and helping me by giving me extra memory....
I studied until 6.30am, that was crazy...and I survived until 3 plus pm..when my DTP paper ended...
Thank God whey! Whatever the results might be, I still want to thank God, cuz without Him, I think I died long time ago..
Also wana thank my friends, June, Kuok Sing, Matthew Ong and CY...
Thanks for being there to study together till wee hours in the morning...I know we all are tired...and for me it really paid off...I believe yours too.....Praying for you guys... :D
Had fun with you ppl and am going to miss u guys!

Waiting to go back to JB now...And also awaiting for June, Marcus and Edward to come down to JB!...
AWAITS AWAITS!!!! :D
Movie with KS, June, CY and Kaucy
Fun in JB
PARTS Practice
New semester
AWAITS AWAITS!!!! :D


Chiaoz!

CNY 2010

It has been a week of CNY break...
As usual, there would be a week of holidays so I came back to get my ang paus...hee
Yeah! And meet up with some friends from church...
LIFE was AWESOME that few days......PICS ARE ON FB....as usual...
Well, this CNY was so tiring.......... and I'm so drained out!
I may just faint out of fatigue..hahaha....not enough rest at all...And exams are in two weeks time....
smart la this ppl! just smart whey!
So little time yet so much to do!
Anyway, I went shopping in SG..GOT all the stuff at the price that is reasonable....AWESOMENESS!!!
THAT WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE CNY BREAK.!!!!
OF cuz not forgetting Titus and Jie Lin's wedding... So happy for them *starts imagining bout self*
Quoted from Dorothy," Looking at their photos makes me want to get married"  *giggles!*
YEAP YEAP! All in all, I had great fun but at the same time, I'm missing my frenz from KDU College! :D

THOUGHTS AND CHOICES I SHOULDN'T HAVE IN MIND!

I was so hesitant to go for camp though I've signed up for camp already...
Easy to say, I didn't set my priorities right! MY PRIORITIES WERE ALL WRONG!!
I put my friends before GOD! ( friends, if u're reading this, don't get offended of misinterpret it. You are important as well)
Because of too much enjoyment together with my friends, I placed God in second place and my friends in first.
To the extend of being hesitant to go to camp, I even tried to think of excuses to excuse myself from going to camp.But at the same time, I thought to myself, if my dad ask me, "hey, how was camp?", what was I going to answer?????
if i got my camp fee, it was fine. but if i din get it den how?? ACCOUNTABILITY was the question!
Distracted was I! Nothing but distraction!
What caused it?????
Well, I can say I made that choice, to let other distractions distract me from coming closer to God.
It was friends and even him! He was the ultimate distractor...
It's not his fault, but because of feelings, the so-called "LOVE" for him distracted me from coming closer to God..It all started with me first though..
In the end, I just went for the camp..........still hesitant in heart but did not mention to anyone else.

I was made the group leader for a group!
When I first found out about it, I thought to myself, "I'm already so hesitant to go to camp, why make me a group leader somemore???"
What a thought right?! But I accepted it and still had the thought of backing out last minute......
I FEEL SO BAD AFTER ALL THIS!

Anyway, I went ahead to camp..BUT BUT BUT
Even when I was in camp, the distraction was still there!
There were times when I thought to myself, "If I was at home now, what would I be doing?"
I also knew that he didn't go back to his hometown that weekend, so the thought of what would I be doing at home now stroke me even more....
I want to learn something from camp, be a different person, want to let God refresh me with a touch!
BUT during sermon time, I was kinda dozing off....I have no idea why I'm so tired or why I keep dozing off...

Comes the interesting part(sorry for reading all the stupid stupid ignorant stuff i wrote..)..
This is the best camp I've ever been! Everything's so awesome! The VENUE, the FOOD, the SCHEDULE, the GAMES (Though some were disgusting...hahaha....) and MOST OF ALL, the SERMON AND WORSHIP SESSION!
This is a place to have camps! Though the jungle trekking and campfire were cancelled, we had open to the floor-spontaneous talent night! hahahaa..It was awesome!
We had an awesome female beatboxer and our African friends from different province presented songs in their own language-all to thank God.!!! and of cuz 2 of the B.E.D....hahhaa.....AWESOME stuff everyone!
I've learnt a lot from sermon too..Though I was dozing off, miraculously I can still hear the speaker preaching!
MIRACULOUS HEARING I guess....hahaha...
I forgot that I could record it down until the third session..but I didn't save that session..accidentally press the back button....CLUMSY ME!
I recorded the last session though..hahhahaha........

TO SUM IT UP AND GO TO SLEEP, I really enjoyed myself in camp and I didn't regret it! In fact, I won't regret and I'm determined to shine for God more than usual!

Good night bloggers and blog readers!!:D

Just came back from THE CAMPUS CAMP!will update soon! lazy to blog now!

Having Fate With Chicken Backside!

Hee...I don't know why but it's been several times taking the chicken backside without knowing it until I'm halfway at it!
It kinda feels disgusting but I don't have a choice cuz I've already taken it.......hahahahaha...*kiasu*..
Nope, but I just don't wana waste food! That's all...Well, I'm fine with it now, I just wonder why, that's all!!!!!

Exposed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel so exposed now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Random!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Very RANDOM NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dun have a choice!

SPAM

SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MATT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MATTHEW MATTHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HE INTRUDED INTO MY BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He lied to me by saying his gmail got problem!!!!!!!!!!and then log into my account to see my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kill him!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't Study

I can't study right now..!!!!No feeling no perseverance to so it!
BUT I REALLY NEED TO!!!!!!!!!!!! IMC IS LIKE SO BORING AND I CAN'T UNDERSTAND CHAPTER 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!For NOW!

Well, of cuz there's a reason to why the title of the post is like that....

Today, I found out that his fren knows that I like him already....Ish!THANKS TO MY GEI KIANGNESS!

DAMN ANNOYING LA WHEY!!!!!
although his fren won't tell him about it (I hope not and I dun think his fren will!) BUT BUT!!!

FOr now, I really don't want to see him...
Maybe it's God's will la..because my dad and aunty will be coming to take me out for dinner, which also means I won't be seeing him for dinner....!!!!!!!!!!THANK GOD!!!!

Releasing my anger now.....Very VERY VERY EMO NOW!!!!!!!!!

ttfn!

Scary whey!

I want to liu da han -_-''''....

Just now June open my blog in the cafeteria and read the CY oh CY post...

Den..when they read..den the expression change...damn I hate that expression...

They started teasing me at that time.....Then someone else was there....damn scary whey......

If that fellow found out, I'll be dead!!!!!TOTALLY HUMILIATED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!

well, thank God la...hahhaha!

still save la...hehehehe!

YET!!!

hmmmm....My leg hasn't officially heal YET...And YET I'm learning dance from PARTS (Kdu Performing Arts) and after dancing a bit too much, my leg actually hurts.and YET, I don't want to bother...

NOW NOW NOW...not that I don't treasure my life and want to hurt it further BUT

I want to use it to the fullest and not regret it...

hmmmmm....So, dun question y I do such things...it's because I want to give my best in everything I do and commit myself too....

Steamboat tonite!

We're going to have steamboat tonite!!!! there will be 9 to 10 of us enjoying ourselves with food, drinks and fellowship...hahaha...well, I gotta finish my assignment now!

ttfn!

CY oh CY!

CY found out who I actually like in college already! She said she sensed it la...

Saturday nite, wee hours on Sunday morning, when I was about to sleep, she suddenly pop out this question, "Eh Sarah, who you like ar?"

I was stunned and stonned for a few seconds...I was hesitating to answer her...but in the end I did...

*I shall not reveal my answer here*

Anyway, I know she can keep it a secret so la....hahaha...BUT it's not like I like him now la...so it's ok..I dun bother anymore...

In MWD class.....

MWD also in LAB D-Computer Lab............
Use FB until sien sien already....
anyway...just here to randomize myself!!!!!!!!!!!
The lecturer is talking now.........

In DTP class now....

I'm sitting beside Melody and Dato Yap!!!(Liweng only la...)
We're not paying attention at all.....(I"m going to die!!!!!!!!!!!!)

melody: deh, atleast I did something lo!!!! haha...the ballerina article!!!

Actually...we did it together la......(qiang gong lao!)

MELODY: DEH!! cheh eleh....got prove!!!!!

anyway...hahahhahahaha......i have no idea what miss maha is talking about....
PICtures will be uploaded on FB la............hahahhahahahhahha.=)

I knew it!!

I just updated my status with this...

Sarah Lim Nothing can stand against me, nothing can ever bring me down, cuz u are with me, cuz u are with me!

about a minute ago · Comment ·

Jaslyn Jas

Wow...who's that??

a few seconds ago ·

Sarah Lim

HAhahhaa.....GOd?!

a few seconds ago ·

And this is what I got!!!!

I knew it la, I knew it.....hahahhahaa....It's actually a song written by Acts Church..

After all that we've been going through....This song really cheers me up!

THE CAMPUS CAMP!

Since I've taken up the challenge to go to THE CAMPUS CAMP,(which my dad initially don't agree because exam is the next day after camp!) I'm going to study earlier...

1) NO last minute doing assignment

2) NO last minute studying

3) NO wasting time (of cuz I will still have to invest some time on my frenz to win souls for Christ!)

This will be partly my resolution for this year too....hmmmmm......

NICE!

The Power Of Confession

** Whatever the enemy tries to break, God turns it into a breakthrough! Amen?!

Two weeks ago, Ps.Kenneth spoke about CONFIDENCE (I wasn't back in KL yet) but I was here last week.

And he spoke about The Power of Confession.

1) Our tongue controls our lives. If you change the way you speak, you can change your whole body system. (that's so awesome ok!!!!!!!!!)

2) James 3:3-5

- If we control our tongue, we can also control our destiny. (It doesn't mean that we will know what will happen in the future but our tongue, controls other parts of the body, tells the body system things to do)

- The things you choose to speak can bring you to either life or death.

- What do you desire? Desire positivity, health, life, to be like Jesus etc etc. and speak forth of it!

**Don't think your way out of the problem, speak your way out of the problem!!!!

2) Acts 2:4 (Holy Spirit's job- 1st priority when it came on to the apostles was to change their tongues, it let them speak in tongues)

3) Genesis 1:3 ( God said-meaning He spoke)

***The Holy Spirit and God's priority was speaking, confessing..Even they did it!

4) Acts 2:17 ( Prophesy- Be specific in asking) Prophesy is declaring the word of God, not telling the future.

5) Ephesians 5:18 & 19- speak...when you're filled with the Holy Spirit, we're going o speak differently (celebrative and declarative is the meaning of speaking in tongues.

6) Ephesians 5: 20- Give thanks!

Conclusion:

***Be continually filled with the Holy Spirit everyday so that words that come out from your mouth will be fruitful and encouraging!

***To prophesy is praise-Praise is powerful like a weapon, It brings balance to earth and even overcome the evil spirits that are on earth! (Acts 2:11-speaking in tongues means speaking forth the amazing God!, Even in tongues we're praising and magnifying God)

***There's Power in Praise!

***See the GOOD in the BAD!

CHANGE YOUR WORDS AND YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR WORLD!