Lost the Passion!

I found out today that I've lost my passion for dancing....

Like there's no more fire burning in it anymore....

The fire died down, no more feelings for it... I'm dancing now because I've committed to the performance tomorrow...and I can't back out now...It's like I'm doing it for the sake of doing!

And this has to stop....I thought of an option, which is to finish this performance and stop dancing for awhile....

But I dun think that will work... 

You see. Last week, I was dancing for Sunday service... I had the passion.. I was dancing and enjoying it as well..the passion was there...

BUT today...TAK DE le....! DAMN SIEN LA!

Where has the passion gone too?? Or isit because I'm not dancing for God?????

Figuring and asking God...Hope I get my answer fast! :(

Another AWESOME DAY!

Another tiring day today....
I think my kidneys are making a lot of noise...."We need rest, they said!"
Lately I've been sleeping like super early!!!!
Yup...But yet, my kidneys are still making noise! PAIN LA...SUFFER WHEY! :(

Today's class was at 8am...so went for it...
Finished at 10am...as usual...Couldn't get to eat breakfast cuz I was going for a blood test and a urine test as well....
After the class, I waited in the cafeteria for Uncle Alvin....The Marcus, June, CY and Jin Swan was there...... hehehe...KAT AND KAUCY AND ADU came down after that...gave me that stare! Ku dun like la..... very mischevious!

So, Uncle Alvin called me, picked me up and we went searching high and low for the place to do the test...!
To our surprise, it was in UPTOWN!
Did the blood test and the urine test.... BLOOD TEST WAS ACTUALLY FUN! IT WASN'T PAIN AT ALL...couldn't even feel the needle going through my skin,flesh into my vein!hehehe....
Well, it was my first time doing it....so yeah! great experience! The lady offered really good service! She was finding for my vein....finally she got it...my veins were going inwards so it's harder to find..
I wonder how pain would it be if the lady didn't poke into the right vein...ISH! dun wanna think abt it!

Den had lunch with Uncle Alvin......

Went for a movie-THE LOSER (nice movie) in 1U....GSC...Had a great time with DA GANG and Peni as well.....was tempted to buy shoes from Cotton On but didn't in the end,....miahahhahaha........
   Quoting from the movie THE LOSER- Hey Pooch, can u still walk??
LOL! that was funneh!!!!!! :) miahahhahaha...........
Came back for Malaysian Studies..It lasted for 40mins......
It was a funny class...Lecturer sounded awesome!History IS FUN!
After that.... Had PARTS practice.........my kidneys lasted till now...AWESOME AIN'T IT??!
WOWZERS!
Dad called, called MUM...June and CY talked to them..They were soooooo funny......
I could imagine my parents laughing.... hahhahahaha...They're gonna be up in PJ next week...woooohhhoooooo......hee:) can't wait to meet them!
Had dinner in Ming Tien..Matthew came to fetch us........
Came back from there....
Prepared my presentation and then now BLOGGING....
AND NOW..........retiring to bed!

GOOD NITE! :D

Tuesday in College....

Today was a long day at college!
Hmmm.....
Starting from the morning...I woke up at 8am....and to my surprise I wasn't feeling tired at all...
Which is a good start for a new day! hehehhee.......
Went for classes......9am-12pm followed by 1pm-4pm.....
In between that one hr break, Kuok Sing showed us "NYEH NYEH NYEH"..Which is a mixture of french kissing and Annoying orange....It was funneh...and disgusting as well....

Then, in Media Planning class, we had an invited guest to show us a video on how to use human rights...
So, there were debates and questions being raised in class....Which I think shudn't be done like that....Ain't healthy for the class....
Come on la....everyone have their own opinion abt politics and human rights and etc......rite???

Anyway, after that class, Inez ajak me go have a drink...It's been a long time since I catch up with her...
After all that has happened...I'm surprised that she's willing to put it behind her (maybe) and carry on with life...which I think is good for her... I know bitching abt her last time was my fault and I shouldn't have done it...APOLOGISE FOR HURTING HER IN ANYWAY! MAAF YA! -.-
So, we went to Wondermilk cafe thinking that the durian chocolate cupcake was from there.... But I was wrong..It's in JAYA ONE!

Whatever la....we chatted and chatted...I'm still wondering why people come and tell me their personal stuff...
Not that I dun like listening to them....In fact, it's what I like doing best......I'm happy that people can open up and share with me their problems because I can't do that...I find it hard to though in the end I still do but very reluctantly...
Then, before going back, I bought a very very chocolate cupcake for June..
Hehehe....When CY heard, she said, "BUY FOR JUNE DIN BUY FOR ME LA NOW??"
I felt guilty cuz I told it to June only..But actually I meant for the both of them....hehhee....MAAF YA!

So, June left half for her as I told her to share it with CY...Mana tau CY said, "U know I dun like sweet stuff rite....I was joking only la..."
I know she doesn't like it..but it slipped off my mind....AIKS!
In the end, June ate it all....hahhahahahaha.........miahahahahhaha....... :D

After that, we had dance practise for this coming Friday's performance...We'll be performing for the LEO CLUB in Kelana Jaya....I'm happy that I'll be able to get exposure la....hehehe...what else...
That's how College ended today....

I'll be going for a blood test and urine test tomoro I think! hehehhee.......Dun worry...I just had some kidney issues.... *READ THE PREVIOUS POST!*

Gonna slp now...GOOD NITE!

Never like being alone! :(

I really never like being alone...
Being alone in a room, or driving or eating just sucks to the max....
I always think alot when I'm alone....and usually they are the unpleasent scenarios in life!
Which will cause me to be super duper emo...hahaha...
And then who are the victims?? u will ask....  WHO ELSE??? MY CLOSE FRENZ AND FAMILY!
They suffer gao gao! Apologise to them whey...but they know me the best!

CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

I think I need to start afresh now!
I've realised that some things that I've done may cause some people to get hurt or disappointed or maybe some other unexplainable feeling....
I didn't realise this until someone actually confronted me...
YES! It did hurt, but at least I know that there is something that I can do about it....
Verifying everything that I've heard, I may have done it unintentionally but it's still a mistake.
And sometimes it is too late too apologise but that makes no excuse to not do so....
So, I'm getting geared up to start a new beginning afresh!
I don't want to be the same as last time..
CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

Reason for being in JB this time round!

I came back to JB again....
This is the 2nd time this month!
Wondering why rite.....
Well, last week when I went to c the doctor, the doctor said I had bladder infection..
I went back to check again last Wednesday, he suspected that I have kidney inflammation..
He referred me to a Kidney Specialist and ask me to go for a check up there..
Came back to Jb for a second opinion... MY MUM FREAKED OUT!
My dad was so stress I think I dropped a bomb shell on him..
My bro was so worried he was always checking up on me..
My sis slumber only la.... (HER PHONE GOT STOLEN TODAY, JUST WHEN I CAME BACK!)
Yeap! Matthew Ong was also so worried, he made sure I get a check up ASAP!
The rest of my frenz used prayer to comfort me.....
Seems as if the whole church office knows about my problem now...
I'm touched...Thanks to my frenz and family members..and everyone else, I might have forgotten who u are...
I'm fine now..BUT I still need to go for check up when I get back to KL...to make sure that there's really nothing wrong with me.....
I pray that God will preserve me..and that His blood will cover over me and heal me as well...
Do keep me in prayers! I know that the devil is out there to harm me for doing God's work and so are those who are doing God's work!
Thanks for your concern everyone! May God Bless U and I know He will! :D

A-W-E-S-O-M-E

I thank God for what He has done in my life....
Ever since we started the prayer group amongst our frenz, I've seen lives breakthrough...
Awesome I tell u! Just AWESOME!
The feeling when u see God moving in our midst and changing each and everyone of our lives!
Ain't it just A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!!!!!!!!!???????
I thank God for this pack of frenz!
I thank God for opening more doors in my life!
I thank God for using me GAO GAO to help others!
I thank God for everything like seriously......

Now that I'm not feeling well.....I still wanna thank God!
Despite my illness, I wanna praise God and I know that everything happens for a reason and God will do a miracle in my life.....
And with this, I can share with the people around me!

Just thought about my leg incident...
I have been wondering why God let this happen to me...
Well, I think I've gotten my answer already! He wants me to treasure dancing...treasure my body...that I'll be able to continue to dance for Him until the end of my days.
He wants me to dance with passion and love....and of cuz with a testimony....:D
THANKS BE TO GOD!

Not in a good mood....:(

Not in a good mood today.....dunno why..

Mood swing la....ISH!
Imagine if this world didn't have such a thing called feelings....

I wonder how everyone will react, express their emotions and feeling...

I feel as if I'm about to cry dy la....I duno why but my heart just feel so heavy la.....

Like a big rock sitting on it....can't get up from it.....ISH!

NO MOOD TO BLOG DY LA....

CHiaoz!

I suddenly wondered why did God make everyone in different shapes and sizes???

What if God made us all the same size??? Wouldn't it be easier for everyone, for the tailors and designers to make clothes and design them???

But then I realised that, wouldn't it be contradicting to the word of God where it mentioned "He created us in His own image", "Each and everyone of us is special and no one is alike, not even the thumbprint".

God is just an awesome God! And He loves us for who we are and not what we are.....

He created us differently not because he is bias but because he wants to show us his creativity....

And so, I went to Homes yesterday! It was the last Homes that we'll be together...

because.....WE WERE MULTIPLYING!

CY and Jin Swan joined us.....had a fun time with Kar Mun!!!!!!!

but we're gonna get separated.... :( *sobs

but nvm!!!!!!!!!!!!

GLEE!

GLEE, as I though was a nice drama serial din turn out so nice in the end..
It's too draggy!!!!!!!!!LIKE really draggy!

but the musicals are inspiring....They inspire me to do something for PARTS!
haahaa...If only I had the source to do the musical.......hmm...I wonder how le....It's not easy to get the scores and get someone who can really play the piano/keyboard for us..But getting the adapter for the keyboard FIRST!
Yup! so I hope I can do something like GLEE....
Just the musical...not the drama....

SS2 Pasar Malam and Today! 12/04/10

Pasar Malams are always crowded as usual...

So, June, CY, Jin Swan and I went to SS2 Pasar Malam today....

We had alot of food.....Everything tasted well...

EXCEPT for the Super Spicy Taiwan Sausage! dah lah so sinful....

SUPER DUPER EXTRAVAGANTLY EXTREMELY SPICY WHEY!!!!

bei da han....I'm like the queen of chilli padi and I can never live without it...but this chilli powder....it's just powderful la whey....over dy over dy..

Oh! and there's this bun.....I never imagine it would be done in that way, and it tasted good alrite!

  

The Nasi Lemak! Fuiyoh..!!!!

Malaysia is TOP for their Nasi Lemak la whey! 

The sambal for the Nasi Lemak is just way too AWESOME!!!! though it's not that spicy, but it tasted so delicious, if it was spicier, it would probably have been better!

The rice was sebiji-sebiji one....not like those, dunno whether cook or not..one lump one lump one..it was perfectly fine!

Let me think what else????oh, and there's this old type of green,pink and yellow round biscuits i think...u can call them biscuits...that was like my childhood whey...Did not buy it but it reminded me of my childhood food...one that i liked eating the most...It'll melt in the mouth that one lah!

Disgusting thing coming.......
I discover blood in my urine...it has been like that for a few days already...

I used to have it but not for so long...I think I'm too heaty...

I hope it's just heaty alrite! I have no idea what's happening to me....

I also feel like vomiting at the same time...I think my body is using too much strength already......exerting too much without replenishing it!yup!maybe...

Yeah! So I pray that God will heal me oso la!

Amazing Testi!

Second day of devotion! Thanks to future Ps. Chan...Hahahhaha...

He will kill me if he sees this! =.=

Anyway, I thank God that from time to time, He provided me with praying partners and God has been gracious to us all....

Today, we prayed for the person on our right....

God did miraculous works in our midst!

Indeed when 2 or 3 are gathered together, God's presence is with us....and I believe God was with us, The Holy Spirit was speaking through me to my fren June to tell her things....

God was working...

All Glory to God!!!! AMEN! Without Him, I can't do anything!

So, I think I'll end here...I have class at 9am..and now is 2.23am....AWESOME rite???

God I really need your strength to carry on my race! 

**Pics will be uploaded soon! sorry!

Good nite!

Happy Moments to share with u!

I'm very happy today....Words just can't express how happy I am right now!
To the extend, I feel like jumping up into the sky and nevah come down like fat mamah!
hahhahahhaa.....that's the way to describe!hahaha..if u knew any of those fat mamah jokes!
I sure know some of u do!

Except for the mash potato gravy, dinner was nice!DELICIOUS!!!!!! now I'm starting to get hungry!!!!!!!!!!
Yeap! The gravy failed me...........I suck at making it...I'll have to experiment next time, at home.....hahahha....before even bringing it out to the world!hehehe

Oh and then and then, Toni very funny la...He's a guy who is so dramatic whey! I think he can compete with Alvin Tan and Joseph Chandra... And when I told him, "gosh! you're so drama......so cute whey!!!!!!"
His face turned super red, toe-may-toe red immediately......
We were laughing so hard......ROFL!

Well, thank God we started some devotion thing...and I shared the campus revo vision with Jin Swan and June...CY was listening..
Thank God for that! We started praying for our Campus..
At least now we have a vision, something to pray for..Because where there's vision, then we'll work towards that vision...We may lose it sometimes, but at least we know where we are...
Yeah...so we were praying for college......of cuz some were silent....but as time goes by, all of us will be able to proclaim the favour of God upon this land! AMEN??!
Let's pray that our fire will continue to burn and glow...and not die down, AMEN???

Brothers and Sisters,
If you're seeing this, I encourage you all to pray for the students that are studying abroad or even does studying in other states...Keep us in prayer, that we won't be led astray and that we will keep close to God...
AMEN??!
Thanks for your support....Especially the Youth Pastors and oso Church Leaders as well as our Parents! Really appreciate you guys.....
Friends that have helped us (Me) in life....
Thank you so much....... MY gratitude to u all.......

To all teenagers and young HUMANS,
AS LONG AS FAMILY IS STILL WITH YOU, learn to appreciate them alright!
They are the ones supporting us from the back, materialistic ways and probably even praying for us in the wee hours of the morning! YUP...I know some parents do...
STUDY HARD and appreciate them by action and not just speech!

That's all for tonite! I'm really happy and I'm gonna slp cuz I have a headache!

TTFN!

Cries...

I feel like crying all of a sudden!
When I saw something that makes me think deeper, my tears were at the verge of bursting out!
Telling kathlyn made it worst...I wanted it to get off my chest by telling someone, but I feel like crying now...
Feeling lonely at times when I'm out....SUCKS TO THE MAX! :(

at MCD finaleh!

I'm at MCD now with Matthew Ong, Jin Swan, CY and June discussing CY and June's PR proposal.
Thanks to 24hrs MCD, we can chill outside and not at home because CY says that she'll feel like sleeping in the house, so we came out...we actually went to Old Town White Coffee den only came to MCD!

Enjoyed!

I enjoyed myself back in JB for the past two days..
Though it's really short, I will treasure it with all my heart!

like how this family seems like, I had the same experience...
Especially on Saturday when everyone was at home...We weren't fighting at all.....
Everyone was happy with each other...and tolerance and patience took place in the family!
AWESOME time there!!!!

Back Home

It's so nice to be back home..

After 3 weeks being in DJ, I was homesick again....So, I decided to come back home!

I realise that having family around us is always the best. Spending quality time with my family is like treasure.

But sometimes we take them for granted...And that will be the majority!
Well, as time goes by, I have learnt to treasure them more and more..Though I still take them for granted, having them to pay my bills and stuff like that...And we are at times lazy to even just say a sentence 'Thank You'..
This time, when I came back, I've seen changes between the relationship in my family..
We're closer, so far no war in the house! At least I feel sense of belonging as well! !
LOVE TO BE HOME!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

TREASURE IT!!!!

The Real Reason of Good Friday and Easter Day

Good Friday known as the day Jesus was taken to cruxification by those who wanted Him dead!

Well, for the Christians, we know that God has a purpose for Jesus to die on the cross~which is to wash our sins away, to help us connect back to God, have a closer relationship with God the Father..

This was the purpose why Jesus Christ died for us! For all of you who don't know about the real reason of the death of Jesus Christ, and why we have Easter Day Celebration, this is it!

IT ISN'T ABOUT EASTER EGGS, BUNNIES AND ALL THAT STUFF SHOWN TO US ON EARTH!

DON'T FORGET THE REAL REASON WHY WE HAVE GOOD FRIDAY AND EASTER DAY CELEBRATION!

Clash of the Titans 2010

Just went to watch a movie Clash of the Titans with June, CY, Jin Swan, Marcus, Edward and Joey!

Really enjoyed the show!Hahaha......It was lots of fun, yet predictable to some of us...But of all the fun, we do know that the Greek Gods wants us Humans to worship them.....Selfish thought hor, Mr.ZEUS!!!!muaahahhahahahhahah!

Words spoke to me.Just like that~!

I was doing my devotion this morning, before I went to class..
Today's title is 'To Speak or Not To Speak' (Mark 14:53-65)
Well, recently, there were just too much drama happening in college..
First was money being stolen the other was betraying another fren...
I think if we were to gather all the dramas together, we could probably make a serial out of it!hahahahaha..
Who knows~?!!
We were talking abt it, gossiping abt it and warning other ppl abt it....
As today's msg from www.rbc.org-daily bread devotional said, 'Silence can be valuable; don’t break it unless you can improve on it.'
This hit me alot.. It was telling me to keep quiet, not talk about such drama (gossip) unless I could make things better....
Which means that I have to keep quiet, not talk about it anymore..
You would definitely ask what if I wanted to warn someone abt it, I guess you could but dun say who did it or wad...
Just leave little little hints to the people.....I made a mistake by warning other by giving them too much information resulting to the person I was refering to, tried to threaten us....that's bad! NEVER NEVER DO THAT!