One of the REALLY GENUINE Happiest DAy of my life!

"Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed"

Christian lyrics - HAPPY DAY LYRICS - TIM HUGHES 

I'm really happy...REALLY REALLY HAPPY....

It's been awhile since I've experience genuine happiness!

In God, there is fullness of JOY!

Well, making that decision ain't easy.. But after making it, I can sense the JOY just running through my whole body! I'm set free......

When I held on to that feeling and didn't want to let go, I was in pain, in agony and in so much hurt......

But now that I've let go, I'm filled with the joy of the Lord and He gives me strength!

It wasn't easy to let go...It was part of what I wanted in life..

I knew God said to me through people and circumstances that that feeling wasn't what He wanted me to have..But as stubborn as I was, I didn't bother.. I held on to it...

Well, we all know that if we don't obey God, means we're choosing the wider path that looks nicer to walk on...but at the end of that path, we will have to bare the consequences...

Bearing the consequences wasn't easy but as long as we are willing to humble ourselves and seek God's help, God will change our consequences into a lesson that we can learn from and help others next time......

He turns our mishaps into a blessing for us... Ain't that great!??! 

Thank you Jesus! I really love you! :D ♥♥♥

Independence Day - Love Story

So young but not that innocent after all..Look at the last part.....
Funny lah he!

Phillips, Craig & Dean - When God Ran - Live

Pranked!

Everything spilled out today! They were playing a prank on me!

And guess whose idea it was??? It was none other than MR. CHAN JIN SWAN!

Smart ass! Kantoi me! not that it was planned ahead but on the spot!

and I actually believe him.....too much! and everyone was just playing along only la

haiz.....qi pian wo de gan qing! TOO MUCH LA TOO MUCH!

Smart ar CHAN JIN SWAN! YOU SO SMART LA!

This is what I get???

I laughed at the situation when I found out about it.....felt so dumb at the same time....:)

I came back home after dancing practice, wondering to myself when I was taking a shower....

WHAT IF I reacted in a different way?? What if I didn't respond with a laughter??

Well, I don't know what was the result for that, cuz I din try...And I thank God I din.....
God heard my prayers this morning.....Thank you God for it!

If...and only if...

If and only if there wasn't a person that can influence our relationship to be in this state....
If and only if I could turn back time so that none of this could happen...
If and only if there weren't such a thing known as feelings.....
If and only if the world could be a better place..

What is there in life that we can determine?
What is there in life that we think if we had chosen this way it would have been much better?
What is there in life that made u make this decision?

In life, we can NEVER NEVER turn back time......
Movies and tv programs that show us things about going back into the past...It's not realistic at all..It will never happen!
What we can do is only plan ahead, think twice before making any ANY decisions, watch what you say and last but not least, never say you regret it in the end!

You must be wondering why I'm saying this...
Well, it all happened to me....and truly I really regretted making all that stupid, idiotic decisions, not watching what I say, not even being aware of what others think and how they feel....
I feel like a BAD ASS KID! LIKE SERIOUSLY!
And sometimes I even put the blame on others without even checking on myself to see if I was the one who had caused all these fraud, tension and emotional instability amongst people around me..
And believe me, I feel terribly bad! TERRIBLY BAD!
When I look back, there's a sense of regret, as well as sense of being childish as well....
I look back and feel stupid at the same time.......
Live a life with one purpose-God, Goal, Go! And THOU SHALL NOT live in regrets!
Definitely, we need the GRACE of God to be upon us as well, if not all thing will not go well........

I've realised my mistakes and I want to sincerely apologise to everyone whom I've hurt before.....
Sorry.......

emo...emo~~~

Probably just keeping quiet for this week would help my 'thinking too much' brain think too much!
Though emotionally unstable at current moment...(sorry for being super duper emo) I shall try to be happy when I'm with everyone...
Don't want you guys to be not so cheerful......
This week started off crankily...and it wasn't that pleasant as well...
BTW, WE NEED TO START DEVOTION AGAIN....last week lupa to do already.......
GUYS, we need to do devotion already...

Weekends!

It's been a while since I've blogged...
Probably not entirely awhile but just not everyday..hee :D
Yesterday, I woke up at 1.30pm...not even knowing it was that time.I woke up to go toilet...
After realising the time, I decided to wake up and started to think what to do for the whole day..
So, I bought my lunch, came up to my room and faced the laptop...Had a sucky internet connection thanks to the housemate!
But I managed to chat with Chulan and we went for a movie together called 'Diary of A Wimpy Kid'

I rate the show 3 stars only.....It was funny in the beginning but soon after that it became a bit boring...But I think the ending was good..It's the normal ending where it is expected that this kid will in the end find his true friend and live happily ever after.. :D

So, after the movie and dinner, I went back home. Wanted to chat and watch drama but the housemates were on PPS....My MSN automatically signed out.....GOSH! I was so frustrated I offed my laptop, took my book, lied on my bed and read it.

DID I TELL YOU THIS BEFORE??????
SUNDAY MORNINGS are always SO AWESOME!

And on the way to church, David and I were talking about God's grace... As I missed last week's service...I was determine to get something out of today's sermon.....
I'll blog about it soon....WAit up for it! 

Good nite!

P/S: If I haven't wrote about it, pls write on my chatbox as a reminder! Thanks!

today!

I went for my blood test and urine test today...AND!!! To my surprise, the bill is RM 386....
Wow...I've never imagine it could be that high....First time take so many test...Of cuz la..
Well, I din have much cash with me, so I paid some only and the rest when I go and collect my results...
My number was called so I went to get the tests done.... 5 pines/tubes to take my blood..2 normal ones, 3 others which I have no idea what it is..... 2 urine containers....
When the needle poke in, it was a little bit pain compared to the last time....
The 1st 2 pines/tubes were ok....slowly by the end of the 2nd pines/tubes my arm, the part where the needle when in became blue black...until now still blue black...damn scary whey.......
of cuz, it doesn't look that obvious in the photo..but it's obvious in real life....
hee:S..

Came back home, rushed MRM..thank God I manage to finish it...
Went to print...walked to college...halfway, realised that I din do reference list!
Went back home to get the websites and everything....walked to college, then to com lab..sat at the computer doing the reference list...FINALLY I was able to finish it and print all before 5pm....
Went to the office, called extension 117 to ask for Mr. Ruly...Got pranked by all the lecturers...
SUCKS TO BE ME WHEY! hahahaha...But they were so funny!miahhahahhaa.......
*Phone rang. Ms Maha answered in a manly voice (so I guessed it was Hardip who picked it up)...
Me: Hi, can I speak to Mr.Ruly?
Fake Ms Maha: You want to speak to Ms. Ruly?
Me: Nope. I want to speak to Mr. Ruly.....
Fake Ms Maha: ok sure......
Mr Ruly picks up the call.....answered in a lady's voice ( it was Ms Maha)
Fake Mr Ruly: Hello..may I help u?
Me: I want to speak to Mr Ruly....
Fake Mr Ruly: speaking...
Me: *tired of asking,when straight to the point! I want to pass up my assignment.
Fake Mr.Ruly: ok..come in.

When in to the office..Everyone laughed...hahahahahhaha...
What a joke whey!

Happy...Happiness.... Joy....Joyfulness!

I want to thank MY SISTER!
She sort of like counselled me...When I really needed it...
Well, feelings and emotions they are a part of everyone's life...
Sometimes they conquer your whole system of life...make you feel happy, emotional and sad....so on and so forth..
You must be thinking "WHAT?? Her younger sister is counselling her her?? What can the sister advise her on??"
My sis, she is like a love expert! Probably we take after our parents! 'MARRIAGE COUNSELLORS'
She told me that God puts me through this situation, He will open doors and ways for you to come out.....AND SOME OTHER personal issues that I wouldn't wanna mention here...
Yes, I know my sis well enough that she can be able to advise me on feelings-love-relationship things....We always give advice to each other...
AWESOME AIN'T IT??
To tell you the truth, my sis and I, though we are 4 years apart, she also has a mature mind like me! MIAHAHHAHAHA! and I LOVE HER SOOOOOO MUCHHHHIIEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Realising that I really need to treasure my family members ever since I came up to DJ to study!
They are really supportive in everything that we do as long as we abide in GOD!
And now that I'm suffering from the illness that I myself am not that clear.....(only know that I've been leaking protein and blood), my parents, Uncle Alvin and family have done so much for me.
My parents came up yesterday to accompany me to see the kidney specialist..They purposely came up all the way and went back on the same day as well.....I felt so touched bt at the same time very tiring for them la..REally wana thank them alot...Well, the parents heart for the children..My mum always say, when you have kids then only you'll know!hahhahaha...wait till I have kids then! :D
Uncle Alvin, despite his busy schedule and loads of work he has, he still brought me to go and do my blood and urine test and also to the hospital yesterday.... He stayed throughout my whole checkup and then brought my parents and I for lunch with Aunty Fiona...
Aunty Fiona, she will be sending me to the hospital this Friday to do my blood test....
All in all, they've all contributed to my life that I have right now..! How AWESOME that feeling is when you know someone is contributing to the life you have right now????

Which LEADS to this year's TEENz Camp THEME- One Life, One God! Live it!

I'm really grateful and thankful to every single one of them!
And to God be the GLORY!
He was the one who gave me this life to live!

That's about it! Better get back to work now...HEE:D

Happy...Happiness....Joy....Joyfulness!

Guilty strikes...PANICKING NOW!

I feel so guilty after what has happened tonite!
I'm so sorry I've caused a heart attack to both me and you and nervous breakdown at that moment of time...:(
Yup PANIC is the word!
I was fiddling with her DSLR camera, snapping photos...Trying to be a pro....(CRAP)
*going straight to main point*
In the end, camera got problem...all the buttons couldn't work!
BOTH OF US FREAKED OUT!
Until now I'm still panicking.....
Cy's ok now...according to the sms she replied me....
B.U.T I still feel so guilty...DAMN! I'm never gonna touch that camera again!

As I mentioned in the previous post, I had to perform a combination of three songs dance for a Leo Club of SMKDU...

So, it happened today....(yesterday nite!)

It was great....All high school students....I felt so lost when I walked into the hall....GOSH! tell me all about feeling old and growing up too fast!

Photos to be uploaded later......I'm gonna slp already!
IT's way past my bedtime! and IF my family finds out, I DIE! hee:S

GOOD NITE! 

ADIOS AMIGOS!

Lost the Passion!

I found out today that I've lost my passion for dancing....

Like there's no more fire burning in it anymore....

The fire died down, no more feelings for it... I'm dancing now because I've committed to the performance tomorrow...and I can't back out now...It's like I'm doing it for the sake of doing!

And this has to stop....I thought of an option, which is to finish this performance and stop dancing for awhile....

But I dun think that will work... 

You see. Last week, I was dancing for Sunday service... I had the passion.. I was dancing and enjoying it as well..the passion was there...

BUT today...TAK DE le....! DAMN SIEN LA!

Where has the passion gone too?? Or isit because I'm not dancing for God?????

Figuring and asking God...Hope I get my answer fast! :(

Another AWESOME DAY!

Another tiring day today....
I think my kidneys are making a lot of noise...."We need rest, they said!"
Lately I've been sleeping like super early!!!!
Yup...But yet, my kidneys are still making noise! PAIN LA...SUFFER WHEY! :(

Today's class was at 8am...so went for it...
Finished at 10am...as usual...Couldn't get to eat breakfast cuz I was going for a blood test and a urine test as well....
After the class, I waited in the cafeteria for Uncle Alvin....The Marcus, June, CY and Jin Swan was there...... hehehe...KAT AND KAUCY AND ADU came down after that...gave me that stare! Ku dun like la..... very mischevious!

So, Uncle Alvin called me, picked me up and we went searching high and low for the place to do the test...!
To our surprise, it was in UPTOWN!
Did the blood test and the urine test.... BLOOD TEST WAS ACTUALLY FUN! IT WASN'T PAIN AT ALL...couldn't even feel the needle going through my skin,flesh into my vein!hehehe....
Well, it was my first time doing it....so yeah! great experience! The lady offered really good service! She was finding for my vein....finally she got it...my veins were going inwards so it's harder to find..
I wonder how pain would it be if the lady didn't poke into the right vein...ISH! dun wanna think abt it!

Den had lunch with Uncle Alvin......

Went for a movie-THE LOSER (nice movie) in 1U....GSC...Had a great time with DA GANG and Peni as well.....was tempted to buy shoes from Cotton On but didn't in the end,....miahahhahaha........
   Quoting from the movie THE LOSER- Hey Pooch, can u still walk??
LOL! that was funneh!!!!!! :) miahahhahaha...........
Came back for Malaysian Studies..It lasted for 40mins......
It was a funny class...Lecturer sounded awesome!History IS FUN!
After that.... Had PARTS practice.........my kidneys lasted till now...AWESOME AIN'T IT??!
WOWZERS!
Dad called, called MUM...June and CY talked to them..They were soooooo funny......
I could imagine my parents laughing.... hahhahahaha...They're gonna be up in PJ next week...woooohhhoooooo......hee:) can't wait to meet them!
Had dinner in Ming Tien..Matthew came to fetch us........
Came back from there....
Prepared my presentation and then now BLOGGING....
AND NOW..........retiring to bed!

GOOD NITE! :D

Tuesday in College....

Today was a long day at college!
Hmmm.....
Starting from the morning...I woke up at 8am....and to my surprise I wasn't feeling tired at all...
Which is a good start for a new day! hehehhee.......
Went for classes......9am-12pm followed by 1pm-4pm.....
In between that one hr break, Kuok Sing showed us "NYEH NYEH NYEH"..Which is a mixture of french kissing and Annoying orange....It was funneh...and disgusting as well....

Then, in Media Planning class, we had an invited guest to show us a video on how to use human rights...
So, there were debates and questions being raised in class....Which I think shudn't be done like that....Ain't healthy for the class....
Come on la....everyone have their own opinion abt politics and human rights and etc......rite???

Anyway, after that class, Inez ajak me go have a drink...It's been a long time since I catch up with her...
After all that has happened...I'm surprised that she's willing to put it behind her (maybe) and carry on with life...which I think is good for her... I know bitching abt her last time was my fault and I shouldn't have done it...APOLOGISE FOR HURTING HER IN ANYWAY! MAAF YA! -.-
So, we went to Wondermilk cafe thinking that the durian chocolate cupcake was from there.... But I was wrong..It's in JAYA ONE!

Whatever la....we chatted and chatted...I'm still wondering why people come and tell me their personal stuff...
Not that I dun like listening to them....In fact, it's what I like doing best......I'm happy that people can open up and share with me their problems because I can't do that...I find it hard to though in the end I still do but very reluctantly...
Then, before going back, I bought a very very chocolate cupcake for June..
Hehehe....When CY heard, she said, "BUY FOR JUNE DIN BUY FOR ME LA NOW??"
I felt guilty cuz I told it to June only..But actually I meant for the both of them....hehhee....MAAF YA!

So, June left half for her as I told her to share it with CY...Mana tau CY said, "U know I dun like sweet stuff rite....I was joking only la..."
I know she doesn't like it..but it slipped off my mind....AIKS!
In the end, June ate it all....hahhahahahaha.........miahahahahhaha....... :D

After that, we had dance practise for this coming Friday's performance...We'll be performing for the LEO CLUB in Kelana Jaya....I'm happy that I'll be able to get exposure la....hehehe...what else...
That's how College ended today....

I'll be going for a blood test and urine test tomoro I think! hehehhee.......Dun worry...I just had some kidney issues.... *READ THE PREVIOUS POST!*

Gonna slp now...GOOD NITE!

Never like being alone! :(

I really never like being alone...
Being alone in a room, or driving or eating just sucks to the max....
I always think alot when I'm alone....and usually they are the unpleasent scenarios in life!
Which will cause me to be super duper emo...hahaha...
And then who are the victims?? u will ask....  WHO ELSE??? MY CLOSE FRENZ AND FAMILY!
They suffer gao gao! Apologise to them whey...but they know me the best!

CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

I think I need to start afresh now!
I've realised that some things that I've done may cause some people to get hurt or disappointed or maybe some other unexplainable feeling....
I didn't realise this until someone actually confronted me...
YES! It did hurt, but at least I know that there is something that I can do about it....
Verifying everything that I've heard, I may have done it unintentionally but it's still a mistake.
And sometimes it is too late too apologise but that makes no excuse to not do so....
So, I'm getting geared up to start a new beginning afresh!
I don't want to be the same as last time..
CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!

Reason for being in JB this time round!

I came back to JB again....
This is the 2nd time this month!
Wondering why rite.....
Well, last week when I went to c the doctor, the doctor said I had bladder infection..
I went back to check again last Wednesday, he suspected that I have kidney inflammation..
He referred me to a Kidney Specialist and ask me to go for a check up there..
Came back to Jb for a second opinion... MY MUM FREAKED OUT!
My dad was so stress I think I dropped a bomb shell on him..
My bro was so worried he was always checking up on me..
My sis slumber only la.... (HER PHONE GOT STOLEN TODAY, JUST WHEN I CAME BACK!)
Yeap! Matthew Ong was also so worried, he made sure I get a check up ASAP!
The rest of my frenz used prayer to comfort me.....
Seems as if the whole church office knows about my problem now...
I'm touched...Thanks to my frenz and family members..and everyone else, I might have forgotten who u are...
I'm fine now..BUT I still need to go for check up when I get back to KL...to make sure that there's really nothing wrong with me.....
I pray that God will preserve me..and that His blood will cover over me and heal me as well...
Do keep me in prayers! I know that the devil is out there to harm me for doing God's work and so are those who are doing God's work!
Thanks for your concern everyone! May God Bless U and I know He will! :D

A-W-E-S-O-M-E

I thank God for what He has done in my life....
Ever since we started the prayer group amongst our frenz, I've seen lives breakthrough...
Awesome I tell u! Just AWESOME!
The feeling when u see God moving in our midst and changing each and everyone of our lives!
Ain't it just A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!!!!!!!!!???????
I thank God for this pack of frenz!
I thank God for opening more doors in my life!
I thank God for using me GAO GAO to help others!
I thank God for everything like seriously......

Now that I'm not feeling well.....I still wanna thank God!
Despite my illness, I wanna praise God and I know that everything happens for a reason and God will do a miracle in my life.....
And with this, I can share with the people around me!

Just thought about my leg incident...
I have been wondering why God let this happen to me...
Well, I think I've gotten my answer already! He wants me to treasure dancing...treasure my body...that I'll be able to continue to dance for Him until the end of my days.
He wants me to dance with passion and love....and of cuz with a testimony....:D
THANKS BE TO GOD!

Not in a good mood....:(

Not in a good mood today.....dunno why..

Mood swing la....ISH!
Imagine if this world didn't have such a thing called feelings....

I wonder how everyone will react, express their emotions and feeling...

I feel as if I'm about to cry dy la....I duno why but my heart just feel so heavy la.....

Like a big rock sitting on it....can't get up from it.....ISH!

NO MOOD TO BLOG DY LA....

CHiaoz!

I suddenly wondered why did God make everyone in different shapes and sizes???

What if God made us all the same size??? Wouldn't it be easier for everyone, for the tailors and designers to make clothes and design them???

But then I realised that, wouldn't it be contradicting to the word of God where it mentioned "He created us in His own image", "Each and everyone of us is special and no one is alike, not even the thumbprint".

God is just an awesome God! And He loves us for who we are and not what we are.....

He created us differently not because he is bias but because he wants to show us his creativity....

And so, I went to Homes yesterday! It was the last Homes that we'll be together...

because.....WE WERE MULTIPLYING!

CY and Jin Swan joined us.....had a fun time with Kar Mun!!!!!!!

but we're gonna get separated.... :( *sobs

but nvm!!!!!!!!!!!!